Evan Odde

Sunday night, our friend Evan took his own life. He was John's best friend..

This is all so weird and really confusing. He was the happiest kid and didn't seem to have a care in the world. I think everyone is still in so much shock yet that the reality hasn't really set in. I feel really horrible about my feelings. I'm supposed to be sad, and I really am.. but there's also a lot going on with me right now like my dance recital and graduation that it's hard to have time to be sad. I feel selfish, but I honestly don't think sitting around thinking about it will make me feel any better. Everyone needs to continue with their lives because that's the best way to get through it I think..

The worst part about all of this is that nobody will ever know why it happened. No one ever suspected him to do anything like this.. but then again he was a very impulsive person... Sometimes I don't think people think about what will happen to the people they leave behind, or maybe they don't really care. I think sometimes people do this just to know what it's like. In a split second of wanting to know and knowing that you can find out if you really wanted to..

I'm happy to see a lot of people coming together from this.. We all need each other in this difficult time. I said before that I think this is a sign that everyone needs to be a bit nicer to each other, because you never know what could happen. My thoughts are with all who knew and loved Evan Odde. There are so many people that will miss him..

On a lighter note in my opinion, I'm pretty sure my last words to him were "You look like a girl."